I am lost again. In the memories. In the pain. My skin seems cold. I can not take it. And all I want. Is to be near him again. To feel more than just this.

Oh God I remember it so well.

Eyes meet.

Lips so smooth.

Touch.

Pull.

Push.

Hands.

Thighs.

Warm breath.

Exhale.

Come together.

On fire forever...

Damn it.

I must forget.

I must not want.

Oh God I know it is over now....

For certain. I am lost. And I am empty. Again. Searching in the darkness. For myself. For something. For a way to carry on.

Find me.