Do you ever have one of those days when you feel like you've suddenly awoken from a long and frightful dream?

All this time, it is I who has floundered. Sunken deep within myself. Paralized by fear. Fallen silently. Into a torturous hell of my own device.

All this time, I haven't moved. Stood still in my dreams. I waited when I should have done.

Oh God, please don't forgive me. Just give me another chance. I want to be better. I want to live again.