there is no stopping it
there is a tremor inside me
it scratches
moans
crackles beneath my skin
and

there is a knock on my door
my blood rushes
through my veins
heart pounds
the sky
threatens to fall
and the panic
sets in
final
absolute
i cannot move

i cannot face
myself
the world
the tragic
empty
plateau
of all my hopes
and dreams
this time
it's for real
the cold
hollowness of my
once raging
heart